GRANNY STYLE – EPITAPH FOR MARG WISNIEWSKI & WAYNE’S WORLD
Get usted to workifying. [[stupify]]
your good thymes top 100.
It’s like selling your soul.
I’d rather sell my body.
that is how making art feels now.
like selling
my soul
and body
and flesh
and muscles
and ears
and eyes
and nose
and mouth
and throat
and lungs
and elbows,
knees and toes
knese and toes,
pigeon.
It’s like an engine that never stops.
My mouth is a gun.
I don’t want to quote music anymore
to not
end
up
dead in a ditch.
I just want to eat.
I haven’t camped or ate proper
or had a fire
or been near the beach
in
3
years.
I have been sleeping on cement
trying not to get
dosed with fenty
or geck
or gang raped
on a traintrack
behind a library.
I am different now.
Do not expect a woman,
please.
I am the folk devil.
I am the monster that got out.
Now be done looking Ozymandius
and listen
what
hell
doth
wrotti.
DO I DESERVE THE INKPOT NOW?
ARE YOU NOT ENTERTAINED, BROTHERS?
SCROUNGE.
like a half-blind libraryan.
if you live in america and you can’t say you are a recovering terf ableist white supremacist you haven’t been alive long enough to look at your own father’s eyes in the mirror.
i stopped caring about nationalism on fourth of july 2020.
when i learned the difference between a gun shot and a firework.
when i choaked on expired weapons of war with the rest of us
that have all been labelled insane.
depression is anger with nowhere to go.
shizophrenia is art with no page big enough to write on
no void big enough to scream in.
no body comfortable enough to crawl into.
no fire hot enough to burn in.
.
.
.
.
.
.
They deem me a coward of a folk devil.
I am.
I never wanted to know.
It was the only lie big enough
to cover
the truth.
I wrote the only lie big enough to
cover up the truth.
Then threw the truth back at them
when they least expected it.
to make sure
everyone
was
watching.
That’s what I think a narcissist would do
if they wanted to burn their cooked books.
I’D BE THE VILLAIN YOU MADE ME.
ON PURPOSE.
Then I would stand next to you and ask:
WHOSE THE MONSTER HERE?
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